Seeing you...

written on the occasion of seeing
someone from the past.

caused me to realize
just how much I'd missed you,
like our summer nights miss
soft rains.

made me hush up
and stand tall,
like some recovering
wind-shifted
tree.

forced me to
remember and take in your
beauty.
an elegant, longing pain
that i could not stand.

brought memories
here
in this place
in this now.

made me remember
all the nights i sat on my hands.
holding pillows
with tear stained face,
dry and thirsting
for your
love.

seeing you
reminded me
how it is to live
in fear
distrust.

seeing you
reminded me
that i had moved on
and that your hold
was gone.